Friday, 2 January 2026

A Persian Verse for a Hindu Shrine: Cultural Memory and the Shivala of Bhaptamau

 



The image before us is more than an illustration; it is a textual and cultural monument. At its center lies a Persian chronogram (tārīkh), composed to commemorate the construction of Lālā Jagannāth’s Shivala at Bhaptamau, near Lucknow. Such inscriptions belong to a refined Indo-Persian tradition in which poetry, numerology, and memory converge.

The Persian Couple t (Chronogram)

Inscribed prominently within the composition is the following Persian couplet, composed explicitly to record the erection of the temple:

تاریخِ تعمیرِ لالہ جگن ناتھ شِوالہ
چو شد بپا، بتِ شیوا مقامِ دل‌ها شد

(Tārīkh-e taʿmīr-e Lālā Jagan Nāth Shivālā
Cho shud bapā, but-e Shīvā maqām-e dil-hā shud)

This couplet performs a dual function. On the surface, it announces the construction of the Shivala and praises it as a place where Shiva becomes the dwelling of hearts. Beneath this poetic layer lies the chronogram itself: the numerical value (abjad) of the designated words yields the year of construction, embedding time within language.

Persian as a Shared Cultural Medium

That a Hindu temple was commemorated through Persian verse is neither accidental nor marginal. Persian, during the Mughal and post-Mughal periods, was the language of record, prestige, and remembrance—used freely by Hindu patrons, bankers, munshīs, and temple endowers. Lālā Jagannāth’s choice to memorialize his Shivala in Persian reflects not cultural submission, but cultural fluency.

Here, Persian does not speak for Islam; it speaks for civilization.

Poetic Technique and Meaning

The chronogrammatic phrase is not harsh or polemical. The poet deliberately avoids sectarian vocabulary, choosing instead:

  • maqām-e dil-hā (abode of hearts),

  • bapā shud (was raised / established),

phrases common in mosque, shrine, and garden inscriptions alike. The temple is thus framed as a spiritual space, not merely a ritual structure.

Image and Inscription as One

The visual program reinforces the text. The Shiva lingam is centrally placed, unmistakable. The architecture—arched, domed, symmetrical—borrows from Indo-Persian manuscript aesthetics. The figures are drawn not in Sanskritic temple relief style, but in the idiom of Persian miniature art. Text and image speak the same cultural language.

This couplet matters because it quietly dismantles modern binaries. It shows a world where:

  • a Hindu patron could think in Persian,

  • A Shiva temple could be praised in the idiom of Islamic courts,

  • and memory itself could be encoded mathematically within poetry.

The chronogram of Lālā Jagannāth’s Shivala is not merely a date. It is a statement of coexistence, written without slogans, arguments, or apology—only beauty.

Thursday, 1 January 2026

The Future & Unseen Universe

 

The future is like the unseen universe — it exists, but our understanding and light have not reached it yet.

Just as we only know space where light has arrived, we only know time where awareness has arrived.

The present is the thin boundary between the known past and the unknowable future.

A Human Is a Universe, and We Are Cells of Something Larger

A human being is not just a body walking on the surface of Earth. A human is a universe in itself.

Inside a single human exists trillions of living cells. Each cell performs its role with precision—dividing, repairing, adapting, surviving. Yet no cell knows the human it belongs to. No cell understands thought, memory, love, ambition, or death. It does not know the face, the name, or the fate of the person it sustains. It simply lives inside a system far greater than itself.

And yet, the human undeniably exists.

This simple biological truth opens a disturbing and beautiful question:


What if our position in the universe is exactly the same?

Life Inside Layers

Reality appears to be layered.

Cells live inside organs.
Organs live inside bodies.
Bodies live on planets.
Planets orbit stars.
Stars form galaxies.
Galaxies weave into a universe.

At every level, beings live inside something they cannot fully perceive.

Cells do not know the human body.
Humans do not know the universe in its entirety.

And perhaps the universe itself exists inside something even larger—something that does not observe us individually, just as we do not observe each cell inside us.

This is not a failure of knowledge.
It is a structural truth of existence.

Unawareness Does Not Mean Nonexistence

A cell’s ignorance of the human does not make the human imaginary.
Likewise, our ignorance of what lies beyond the universe does not mean nothing exists there.

A human does not monitor each cell consciously.
A human does not feel every division or death of a cell.
Yet the body lives as a whole.

If a greater universe exists beyond us, it may not:

  • Watch individuals

  • Track suffering

  • Judge intentions

Not because it is cruel or indifferent—but because systems do not need to look inward to exist.

Existence does not require observation.

The Illusion of Centrality

Humans struggle because consciousness creates a sense of central importance. We feel that if something does not see us, it does not value us. But biology contradicts this idea.

You are not less real because your cells don’t know you.
You are not less meaningful because the universe may not know you.

Meaning is not assigned from above.
Meaning emerges locally.

Cells do not know purpose—but purpose exists at the level of the body.
Humans may not know cosmic purpose—but meaning exists at the level of lived experience.

Awareness as a Local Phenomenon

Consciousness appears where complexity reaches a threshold. It does not appear everywhere, and it does not appear fully formed.

Cells have no fear of death.
Humans do—because humans possess memory, identity, and anticipation.

Fear, love, grief, and wonder are not cosmic flaws.
They are local responses to awareness within a limited layer.

A cell’s survival struggle is chemical.
A human’s survival struggle is emotional and existential.

Same pattern. Different scale.

A Quiet Symmetry

Perhaps we are not the center of existence.
Perhaps we are not meant to know the whole.

Perhaps we are cells in a larger organism, performing our role without understanding the total structure—just as our own cells do.

And perhaps that larger structure does not look inward, not because we are unimportant, but because containment limits perception.

The Realization That Changes Everything

If this is true, then:

  • We do not need cosmic validation

  • We do not need ultimate answers

  • We do not need to be watched to be real

Our responsibility is not to know everything.
Our responsibility is to live honestly within our layer.

Just as cells keep the body alive without knowing the human,
we live our lives without knowing the ultimate structure—and that is enough.

Conclusion

A human is a universe.
And perhaps the universe is something else’s human.

We live inside layers, not because reality is broken, but because this is how existence sustains itself.

Not everything is meant to be known from inside.
But everything that is lived, felt, questioned, and experienced—
is real.

And that reality does not need permission from the cosmos to matter.

A Supernova in Human Thinking

A supernova in human thinking is not madness.

It is not confusion.
It is an explosion of awareness.

Just as a star lives quietly for millions of years—burning its fuel, maintaining balance, obeying invisible laws—the human mind often lives the same way. We move through routines: work, roles, expectations, survival. Stable. Predictable. Contained.

Then something happens.

Not always an external event.
Sometimes, itis just a question.

Who am I?
Why am I here?
What is real, and what is inherited belief?

That moment is the collapse of the old mental core.

The structures that once held everything together—certainties, identities, borrowed truths—begin to compress under their own weight. The mind can no longer sustain the familiar order. And so, it breaks open.

This is not destruction.
It is a transformation.

In the cosmos, a supernova does not mark the end of a star—it marks the creation of something greater. Heavier elements are born. New matter is scattered across space. Entire solar systems become possible because of that violent brilliance.

The same is true for human consciousness.


When old assumptions collapse, awareness expands. Thought becomes sharper. Perception deepens. One begins to see the difference between conditioning and truth, between belief and experience, between noise and meaning.

To an untrained eye, this phase may appear to be confusing. To society, it may appear as restlessness, withdrawal, or rebellion. But inwardly, it is clarity being forged under immense pressure.

This is the moment when a human being stops living on autopilot.

It is uncomfortable.
It is lonely.
It is irreversible.

After a supernova, a star is never the same. And after such an awakening, neither is the mind. One cannot return to unconscious certainty. One can only move forward—wiser, humbler, and more aware of the vastness within and beyond.




A supernova in thinking is not a breakdown.
It is a breakthrough.

It is the birth of a deeper intelligence—one that no longer asks only how to live, but dares to ask what it truly means to be alive.

Monday, 22 December 2025

A Brief Opening in the Sky: When K2 Revealed Itself

 

A Brief Opening in the Sky

(All pictures are taken by myself used in this blog)

Some dreams do not arrive suddenly.
They wait — quietly — across years.
For a long time, the idea of the K2 Base Camp trek lived in me as a distant but steady calling. To stand before the second-highest mountain on Earth was not a casual ambition; it was a lifelong desire — to witness scale, silence, and endurance in their purest form.
Working in the private sector made such a journey nearly impossible. An eighteen-day leave was not something life easily allowed. So I made a difficult choice. I resigned — not out of restlessness, but because some dreams demand space before they demand courage.
Months before the journey, I prepared myself. Every day, I ran at the racecourse for 3 to 4 rounds — training not just my body, but my resolve. I knew what lay ahead: nearly ninety kilometers one way, much of it across the unforgiving Baltoro Glacier — ice that shifts beneath your feet, breath that thins, and time that slows.
This was not a trek you simply attempt.
It is one you commit to.
I also carried a quiet fear. A close friend had completed the same journey before me. He waited at Concordia for fourteen days — and never saw K2. The mountain remained hidden, sealed behind clouds, indifferent to effort and patience alike.

It was the tenth day of trekking when we finally reached Concordia
The home of four 8,000-meter mountains.
And yet, when I arrived, the sky was closed.
Thick clouds hung low and unmoving, filling the valley completely. There was no promise of clearing, no hint of change. I knew then that we would have to begin our return the very next day.



Standing there, that fear returned with full weight.
I felt the possibility that years of planning, months of preparation, and the surrender of certainty might end without fulfillment — that the journey I had carried for so long might remain incomplete.
I came a long way to stand there.
Longer than the distance alone can measure.
Eighteen days of walking.
Ice underfoot.
Stone in the lungs.
Silence pressing inward,
until even breath felt deliberate.
This was the place where the mountain should rise
like an undeniable truth.
But the sky was sealed.
Clouds filled the valley, dense and unmoving,
as if the world had decided to withhold its answer.


Tomorrow, we would turn back.
I stepped away from the group
and stood alone.
And there, something inside me gave way.
I spoke without order,
without strategy,
without restraint.
Not asking — only saying.
I said I had done everything I could.
That I had given time, effort, certainty.
That I did not know
if my body or my life
would ever bring me here again.
My eyes overflowed.
I cried openly, deeply —
as if grief and hope
had finally found the same voice.
I said I had come so close,
standing at the threshold of this place,
and that leaving without seeing the mountain
would leave something unfinished within me.
There was no negotiation in my words.
No demand.
Only honesty.
Then — quietly,
almost imperceptibly —
The sky shifted.
From the highest reaches of the mountain,
The clouds began to loosen their hold.




Not abruptly.
Not dramatically.
They thinned.
They drifted.
They released.
And there it was.
K2 stood before me —
vast, indifferent, absolute.
Neither welcoming nor cruel.
Simply present.
For a few fragile minutes,
The mountain revealed itself,
not as a reward,
But as a permission.
My hands trembled as I took photographs,
aware that this moment
was not meant to be owned.
Within an hour, the clouds returned.
That night, rain closed the sky again.
For days afterward, the mountain vanished.
But I had seen it.
What remained was not the image.
It was the stillness that followed —
the moment when the effort ended
and acceptance took its place.
When standing small
felt neither weak nor afraid.







That day taught me
that some things appear
only when the pursuit dissolves.
That some answers arrive
not as explanations,
but as brief openings.

“In that stillness, it felt as though the universe had paused to listen.”

 

The clouds returned, and the mountain was gone.
But something within me had settled.
The journey no longer felt incomplete.
I had seen enough — not just of K2, but of myself.
In that stillness, it felt as though the universe had paused to listen,
as if some moments are met not with answers, but with presence.
I did not take the mountain with me.
I left something of myself there instead.
And sometimes, that is how a story ends:
not with possession, but with quiet understanding.

آسمان میں ایک مختصر سا شگاف

کچھ خواب اچانک نہیں آتے۔
وہ برسوں خاموشی سے انتظار کرتے ہیں۔

کافی عرصے تک کے ٹو بیس کیمپ ٹریک کا خیال میرے اندر ایک دھیمی مگر مسلسل صدا کی طرح موجود رہا۔ دنیا کے دوسرے بلند ترین پہاڑ کے سامنے کھڑے ہونے کی خواہش کوئی وقتی شوق نہیں تھی؛ یہ زندگی بھر کا خواب تھا — وسعت، خاموشی اور استقامت کو اس کی خالص ترین شکل میں دیکھنے کا خواب۔

نجی شعبے میں کام کرتے ہوئے ایسے سفر کا تصور کرنا بھی آسان نہیں تھا۔ اٹھارہ دن کی چھٹی لینا تقریباً ناممکن تھا۔ چنانچہ میں نے ایک مشکل فیصلہ کیا۔ میں نے استعفیٰ دے دیا — بے قراری میں نہیں، بلکہ اس یقین کے ساتھ کہ کچھ خواب ہمت سے پہلے جگہ مانگتے ہیں۔

سفر سے کئی ماہ پہلے میں نے خود کو تیار کرنا شروع کیا۔ ہر روز دال کے ریس کورس میں دوڑ لگاتا رہا — جسم کے ساتھ ساتھ اپنے عزم کو بھی مضبوط کرتا رہا۔ مجھے معلوم تھا کہ آگے کیا ہے: تقریباً نوّے کلومیٹر کا یک طرفہ سفر، جس کا بیشتر حصہ بے رحم بالتورو گلیشیئر پر مشتمل ہے — ایسی برف جو قدموں کے نیچے سرکتی ہے، ایسی ہوا جو سانس کو محدود کر دیتی ہے، اور ایسا وقت جو جیسے ٹھہر سا جاتا ہے۔

یہ کوئی ایسا سفر نہیں جسے بس آزمایا جائے۔
یہ وہ سفر ہے جس سے وابستگی درکار ہوتی ہے۔

میرے دل میں ایک خاموش خوف بھی تھا۔ ایک قریبی دوست اس سے پہلے یہی سفر کر چکا تھا۔ وہ چودہ دن کونکورڈیا میں رکا رہا — مگر کے ٹو کو دیکھ نہ سکا۔ پہاڑ بادلوں کے پیچھے چھپا رہا، محنت اور صبر دونوں سے بے نیاز۔


کونکورڈیا

یہ ٹریک کا دسواں دن تھا جب ہم آخرکار کونکورڈیا پہنچے —
وہ عظیم مقام جہاں گلیشیئر آپس میں ملتے ہیں، اور جسے اکثر چار آٹھ ہزار میٹر بلند پہاڑوں کا گھر کہا جاتا ہے۔

مگر وہاں پہنچ کر آسمان بند تھا۔

گھنے بادل وادی پر ایسے چھائے ہوئے تھے جیسے ٹس سے مس ہونے کا کوئی ارادہ ہی نہ ہو۔ موسم میں کسی بہتری کی کوئی امید نہ تھی، کسی تبدیلی کا کوئی اشارہ نہیں۔ میں جان گیا تھا کہ ہمیں اگلے ہی دن واپسی شروع کرنی ہوگی۔

وہیں کھڑے کھڑے، وہی خوف پوری شدت سے لوٹ آیا۔

مجھے محسوس ہوا کہ برسوں کی منصوبہ بندی، مہینوں کی تیاری، اور زندگی کی سہولتوں سے دستبرداری — سب کچھ ادھورا رہ سکتا ہے۔
کہ یہ سفر، جسے میں اتنے عرصے سے اپنے اندر اٹھائے پھر رہا تھا، شاید مکمل نہ ہو سکے۔


میں بہت دور سے یہاں آیا تھا۔
اتنا دور کہ صرف فاصلے اس کا اندازہ نہیں لگا سکتے۔

اٹھارہ دن کی مسلسل مسافت۔
پاؤں تلے برف۔
پھیپھڑوں میں پتھر سا بوجھ۔
خاموشی جو اندر تک دباؤ ڈالتی جاتی تھی،
حتیٰ کہ سانس لینا بھی ایک سوچا سمجھا عمل بن گیا تھا۔

یہ وہ جگہ تھی جہاں پہاڑ کو
ایک ناقابلِ تردید حقیقت کی طرح ابھرنا چاہیے تھا۔

مگر آسمان بند تھا۔

بادل وادی میں بھرے ہوئے تھے، گھنے اور ساکن،
جیسے دنیا نے فیصلہ کر لیا ہو
کہ اپنا جواب روک کر رکھے۔

کل ہمیں واپس لوٹنا تھا۔

میں اپنے گروپ سے الگ ہوا
اور تنہا کھڑا ہو گیا۔

اور وہیں، میرے اندر کچھ ٹوٹ سا گیا۔


میں نے بے ترتیب بات کی،
بے منصوبہ،
بے روک ٹوک۔

مانگا نہیں —
بس کہا۔

میں نے کہا کہ میں نے اپنی طرف سے سب کچھ کر لیا تھا۔
کہ میں نے وقت دیا، محنت دی، یقین قربان کیا۔
کہ مجھے معلوم نہیں
میرا جسم یا میری زندگی
مجھے دوبارہ یہاں آنے دے گی یا نہیں۔

آنکھیں بھر آئیں۔
میں کھل کر رویا —
یوں جیسے غم اور امید
ایک ہی آواز میں بول اٹھے ہوں۔

میں نے کہا کہ میں اتنا قریب آ کر کھڑا ہوں،
اس مقام کی دہلیز پر،
اور اگر پہاڑ کو دیکھے بغیر لوٹا
تو میرے اندر کچھ ہمیشہ کے لیے ادھورا رہ جائے گا۔

میرے الفاظ میں کوئی سودا نہیں تھا۔
کوئی مطالبہ نہیں۔

بس سچائی تھی۔


پھر —
نہایت خاموشی سے،
تقریباً محسوس نہ ہونے والے انداز میں —
آسمان نے کروٹ لی۔

پہاڑ کی بلند ترین چوٹی سے
بادل اپنی گرفت ڈھیلی کرنے لگے۔
نہ اچانک۔
نہ ڈرامائی انداز میں۔

وہ پتلے ہوئے۔
وہ سرکنے لگے۔
وہ پیچھے ہٹ گئے۔

اور پھر وہ سامنے تھا۔

کے ٹو —
عظیم، بے نیاز، مطلق۔
نہ خوش آمدید کہنے والا،
نہ ظالم۔

بس موجود۔

چند نازک لمحوں کے لیے
پہاڑ نے خود کو ظاہر کیا،
انعام کے طور پر نہیں،
بلکہ اجازت کی طرح۔

میرے ہاتھ کانپ رہے تھے جب میں نے تصاویر لیں،
یہ جانتے ہوئے کہ
یہ لمحہ میرا نہیں ہے۔

ایک گھنٹے کے اندر بادل پھر لوٹ آئے۔
اس رات بارش ہوئی۔
اگلے کئی دنوں تک پہاڑ دوبارہ غائب رہا۔

مگر میں اسے دیکھ چکا تھا۔


جو باقی رہ گیا، وہ منظر نہیں تھا۔

وہ اس کے بعد آنے والا سکون تھا —
وہ لمحہ جب کوشش ختم ہوئی
اور قبولیت نے جگہ لے لی۔
جب خود کو چھوٹا محسوس کرنا
نہ کمزوری لگا، نہ خوف۔

اس دن مجھے یہ سکھایا گیا
کہ کچھ چیزیں
تبھی ظاہر ہوتی ہیں
جب تعاقب ختم ہو جاتا ہے۔
اور یہ کہ کچھ جواب
تشریح کی صورت میں نہیں آتے،
بلکہ مختصر سی جھلک بن کر آتے ہیں۔

Tuesday, 9 December 2025

Extended Tribute to Surrinder Mohan Sarin






In Memory of Surrinder Mohan Sarin (1938–2025)

A Journey Through Heritage, Memory, and Human Connection
By Ali Usman Baig


A Legacy Rooted in Shahdara

Surrinder Mohan Sarin (1938–2025) belonged to one of Shahdara’s prominent pre-Partition Hindu-Khatri families — custodians of the historic Pari Mahal, a mansion once known for its 103 rooms, sprawling orchards, and the vibrant community life surrounding it. His ancestors owned nearly two thousand acres of fertile land extending into Sheikhupura, forming a significant chapter in Lahore’s cultural and agricultural history.

Years later, when I documented the fading traces of Pari Mahal, I could not have imagined that my work would travel across borders and reach someone whose childhood memories were tied to those very bricks. Yet it did — and that became the beginning of a deeply meaningful connection.


A Bond Formed Through Heritage

When my article reached him, Surrinder Mohan Sarin wrote to me with emotion and gratitude:

“Thank you for giving me nostalgic memories of Pari Mahal… Most portions are unrecognizable now, but the top-floor room stands exactly as we left it. Usman beta, thanks a million once again for the great efforts.”

His words carried the ache of a man revisiting the home he could not return to physically, yet rediscovered through images and storytelling.

In a message that touched me deeply, he reflected on our earlier exchanges about the neighbouring towns mentioned in my research:

“It is such an illuminating article… But the most nostalgic is about Babar hailing from Kot Radha Kishan. If you remember our earlier exchange — Shahdara, Kot Mool Chand and Kot Radha Kishan were founded by our ancestors Mooley Shah, Radhe Shah and Behari Shah. It is a matter of great joy that somebody from Kot Radha Kishan appears in your work. Your own career speaks of a wonderful journey. God bless.”

This message held the weight of lineage, history, and pride.
For him, heritage was not simply about structures — it was about identity, village origins, familial memory, and the stories carried forward by others.


His Reflections, Memories, and Gentle Wisdom

Our conversations flowed beyond buildings and history. He often shared snippets of life, both tender and heartbreaking:

“My wife died on 19th September, and tomorrow is our wedding anniversary. What an irony of fate.”

Even in grief, he wrote with dignity — never bitter, always graceful.

He also shared the joy of his childhood Lahore:

“There was perfect harmony between Hindus and Muslims… My mother and Bhua would make huge balti of lassi and call all neighbours to share. Such was the bhaichara.”

He remembered the well near the gate, the long veranda now encroached, and the bustling household that Pari Mahal once was. His memories brought the mansion to life far beyond what any photograph could convey.

He often encouraged me with unexpected warmth:

“What a treasure house of information… The day is not far when you will be a top historian of Indo-Pak. God bless you.”

He spoke of heritage books, oral traditions, family histories, and even music:

“After Kishore Kumar, I like Sonu Nigam. Do you like Kishore Kumar?”

These simple exchanges made the connection more human than historical — a bridge of warmth crossing the distance of borders, generations, and time.


A Photograph That Now Feels Like Memory

Once, he shared a photograph from his home — a small heater glowing softly in the foreground, and he sitting quietly at the dining table in the background. It was a humble winter evening captured unintentionally, a still moment of everyday life.

With it, he wrote:

“Same heater as yours. See how similar we people are.”

It was a simple line, yet profoundly symbolic — a reminder that humanity often finds its deepest connections in the most ordinary things. Today, that photograph feels like a gentle farewell, a frame filled with warmth before the quiet.


A Noble Departure

On 8 December 2025, at the age of 86, Surrinder Mohan Sarin passed away.
In keeping with his wishes, his mortal remains were donated for medical education and research, a final act of generosity that reflects the dignity and compassion with which he lived his life.


A Legacy That Lives Beyond Walls

Today, as his family remembers him, his legacy survives not only in the lost walls of Pari Mahal but also in the values he embodied — humility, gratitude, warmth, and the ability to cherish shared history even across borders.

For me, this connection was more than a historical discovery. It was a reminder that heritage is ultimately about people — their memories, their emotions, and the stories they entrust to us.

May his soul rest in eternal peace.
May his memories continue to illuminate the stories of Shahdara, Lahore, and the shared legacy of our subcontinent.


Saturday, 29 November 2025

Memories of Bukhari Building — A Childhood Home That No Longer Exists (1989–1993)

A true story from my early years in Mughalpura, Lahore

By: Ali Usman Baig

Some homes exist only in memory. For me, that place is the Bukhari Building in Mughalpura, Lahore — a rented portion where we lived from 1989 to 1993, yet it shaped my entire childhood.

We moved there because my father was transferred to another city. My schooling had to continue, and my maternal grandparents were close enough to support us. I still remember walking with my grandmother as she searched for a place to rent. She eventually found a tiny first-floor portion in the Bukhari Building for 500 rupees a month. 

The portion had just two small rooms. One was used by my uncles. The other served as our bedroom, sitting room, and guest room all at once. A small courtyard connected everything — half-roofed, half-open to the sky. My grandfather kept a solid wooden bed in the shaded corner because his back pain didn’t allow him to sleep on a charpai. He worked seven days a week, even on Sundays and Eid. His quiet discipline taught us the meaning of effort without ever speaking about it.

There was no water supply inside the building. A tube-well across the road was our only source, and we filled containers from it several times a day. It was simply a normal part of life in Mughalpura during the early ’90s. At night, we spread a charpais in the open part of the courtyard and slept under a single fan and the open sky. Shelves above us held old belongings. The house was small, but full of life.

Bukhari Building had a certain mystery tied to it. It stood adjacent to the Shah Kamal Graveyard, and a quietness settled over the area, especially in the evenings. Inside the courtyard, there were also a few small, unidentified graves, old and nameless, that no one touched. They were simply part of the environment — strange, silent, accepted.

On the ground floor lived the landlady, Hala Shani, an elderly Pathan widow who lived alone. Her husband had died young, and both her daughters were married. She was religious, quiet, and strict about noise, especially when we played cricket near her portion. As children, we feared her scolding, not realizing that silence was her only companion.

There was a narrow, roofed passage on the ground floor, its floor made of natural mud. People said that before the building was constructed, graves existed in that corner as well. Whether true or just Mughalpura folklore, the place always felt untouched and still. We never played there.

Next to that space were two small shops — a carrom shop and a fruit stall. The carrom shop was a gathering spot for older boys and rough youngsters. We weren’t allowed to enter; we just watched from the doorway. I still remember one incident clearly: my uncle parked his bike in front of that carrom shop, locked it, went upstairs for only a few minutes, and it was stolen. That street taught us how fast things could disappear.

The other shop was run by a short-tempered fruit seller everyone called “Fogy.” If someone teased him with that name, he would shout, curse and sometimes throw stones. He rarely hurt anyone, but nobody dared say “Fogy” loudly.

Not far from the Bukhari Building, right in front of the Millat Girls School, was a large open area everyone called the Rori — a dumping spot where people threw garbage. I remember seeing dozens of vultures there almost every day, huge and silent, feeding or circling above. It was a strange, unforgettable sight of Lahore in those days. And then one day, without warning, they disappeared. Not gradually — suddenly. As if vultures had never existed in Lahore at all. The Rori remained, but the sky above it became empty forever.

Our neighbors were a large Pathan family with many daughters and two sons. We shared food almost daily. If something cooked at our place didn’t taste good, we simply sent it next door; it returned the next day with their dishes. No ego, no hesitation — just the way life was.

Basant was the heartbeat of our childhood. Lahore’s sky would turn golden even before sunrise, and Bukhari Building’s rooftop felt like the center of the festival. Our roof was perfect for flying the traditional kites of Lahore — Gudda, Tawa, Kup, Sharala, Pari, Patang, Machar — and the famous white Kuddas in Tawa, Der Tawa and Do Tawa sizes. Kite battles were fierce but beautiful, white against white, paper trembling in the wind.

My uncle’s room was legendary — almost 500 kites hung along the walls, preserved like a personal museum of Lahore’s Basant culture. Even after Basant was banned in Lahore, he kept every kite. He couldn’t fly them anymore, but he couldn’t let go of the memories either.

The real thrill came during the pecha, when two kites locked lines and the duel began. That’s when the technique of “hath pherna” became crucial — a rapid hand movement along one’s string to make it slice through the opponent’s line. It was especially effective against manjha, the sharp, glass-coated string many used. A master of hath pherna could defeat even stronger lines. And when a kite finally lost, rooftops erupted with “Bo kata!”

But Basant also had its unwritten rules — rules every child respected. One of the biggest was this: if a kite’s string broke without a pecha, without a fight, the kite had to be returned to the flyer. Catching a drifting kite wasn’t a victory; it was a responsibility. Only the kites cut in a real battle were trophies. This little moral code gave dignity even to the smallest rooftop.

Along with the thrill came the classic rooftop arguments. Someone would accuse another of using “zalim manjha,” or pulling unfairly, or cheating during a pecha. Shouts echoed across rooftops, threats followed, and within minutes everyone returned to flying again. Basant wasn’t just a festival — it was rivalry, joy, excitement, and Lahore at its purest.

Education was central to our home. Two of my aunts were brilliant students. One, doing her Master’s degree, created a shaded study corner on the roof using wooden planks. She studied there even in summer heat without a fan. Both aunts opened a tuition center at home to support their studies and the family. Students from school to bachelor levels came daily. Books and notes filled the house. I learned the value of education by watching them study tirelessly.

Outside the building stood Noora Cycle Works, where bicycles were repaired and rented. My first bicycle — a BMX Hercules. Next to it was a kabariya shop run by Teddy. His orphan nephew Bola once refused to return my cricket ball, so I hit him on the arm. The fight vanished by evening as if nothing had happened. That’s how childhood was — quick tempers, quicker forgiveness.

Animals were a big part of my early life. We kept two Russian dogs, Mickey and her pup Beater. They ate what we ate and were like family. When Beater slipped from the stairs and died, Mickey became silent and later died too. That was my first understanding of how deeply animals feel grief. I also kept parakeets, a ring-necked parrot and hens — small pieces of childhood that stayed with me.

My grandmother, my Achi Amma, loved me the most. I slept beside her every night and received duas every morning. I loved her even more than my own mother. She passed away in 2001, but her love remains one of the strongest parts of my life.

I studied at Cathedral School. Every morning, my mother walked with me through winter fog to the bus stop. Her warm hand around my cold fingers is still a memory I carry. During the monsoon, the streets flooded, yet we played cricket without worry. We read Akhbar-e-Jahan, collected toy soldiers, watched movies on VCR, celebrated Pakistan’s 1992 World Cup victory, and spent evenings with elders. Life was simple, without mobile phones or distractions.

At around 10 or 12, I made a childhood mistake — peeking at a girl bathing at a hand pump through a parapet hole. I didn’t understand shame or privacy. When she complained, my mother handled it gently and taught me through understanding, not punishment. Some lessons stay quietly forever.

The story of Bukhari Building can never be complete without Rani Aunty. We all called her Rani. She was my mother’s cousin, a few years older, and she lived with us in Bukhari Building. She was my Nani Amma’s most beloved niece. Rani Aunty had the saddest eyes I have ever seen — soft, silent, and carrying a kind of brokenness that even childhood innocence could feel without understanding.

She had married young in Kasur, but her husband was not a good man. She took a divorce to save herself, but her father taunted her endlessly for that decision. Hurt, humiliated and unwanted, she came to live with my Nani Amma, who opened her door—and her heart—to her.

Her little Chota Takht Posh was unforgettable — a small wooden bed in the corner of the kitchen where she slept without a mattress, without a blanket, as if she had chosen discomfort just to avoid burdening anyone. She ate very little, often just one roti, and sometimes she ate nothing but a few pears, quietly, with a kind of apologetic grace. Her whole existence felt like an attempt to take up less space in the world.


Even so, she wasn’t invisible. She ran the kitchen. She cooked for everyone — my uncles, my aunts, for us children — from morning until late at night. She worked under the dim kitchen bulb while the rest of the house slept. She never complained, never argued, never demanded anything. Her hands were always busy; her heart always silent.


I remember one day her youngest brother came to our house. He sat with her for a long time, speaking softly, insisting again and again that she come with him, stay at his home, live with her own family. But she kept refusing — quietly, firmly. I never understood why. Looking back now, I feel she no longer wanted to depend on anyone, not even on her siblings. Perhaps she felt she did not belong anywhere anymore. Perhaps she had accepted her sadness as her only companion.

Sometimes I think she was alone in a house full of people — surrounded by us, yet deeply isolated. And even now, whenever I remember her, a question rises inside me: Why are women like her — so gentle, so giving — treated with such cruelty by life, and sometimes by the very people they love?

I remember wanting a toy soldier from Nemat Market in Sukkano Bazaar. It cost 90 rupees — something we couldn’t afford. I kept asking my mother, but we were three siblings, and those were difficult times.

But Rani Aunty noticed. She stitched a soldier out of cloth, filled it with cotton, and gave it to me. I played with it like it was the real one. Even in her deepest sadness, she found ways to make someone else happy.

She never returned to her parents’ home. She carried her grief quietly until it became illness. Breast cancer. Railway Hospital. And then one day, she was gone — as silently as she had lived.

I remember her often — her Chota Takht Posh, her quiet footsteps, her tired eyes, her gentle smile. She was not just an aunt; she was more than an aunt.

She was a soft light in a very hard world.

Years later, I often dreamed of returning to Bukhari Building. In my dreams only my grandmother was there — sick, waiting. The building looked empty. In reality, after we moved, Hala Shani passed away, the building was sold and demolished, and a large house was built in its place. Nothing remains now — no walls, no courtyard, no graves, no rooftops. Only memories.

I also remember a little girl named Moni, around two or three years old, who called out to me when we moved. I never saw her again. Childhood doesn’t teach us how to say goodbye; it simply moves forward.

Bukhari Building no longer exists, but everything I learned there stayed with me — sharing food, respecting elders, loving animals, valuing education, sleeping under the open sky, and finding happiness in ordinary things. It wasn’t just a rented portion; it was the place where my childhood made sense.


Saturday, 30 August 2025

Pre-Partition harmonium by Kartar Singh, Anarkali, Lahore

I came across a harmonium made before Partition, its fading label still carrying the proud words:

KARTAR SINGH
HARMONIUM MAKER
ANARKALLI, LAHORE

and in Punjabi (Gurmukhi):

ਕਰਤਾਰ ਸਿੰਘ ਹਾਰਮੋਨਿਯਮ ਮੇਕਰ ਅਨਾਰਕਲੀ ਲਾਹੌਰ




This simple label tells the story of Kartar Singh, a craftsman rooted in Anarkali, Lahore, whose hands once shaped instruments that became the heartbeat of gatherings. It carries me back to a time when Anarkali and nearby Langa Mandi in Taxali were alive with the rhythm of chisels, hammers, and the fine-tuning of reeds — true hubs of musical instrument making in the city. In those narrow, bustling lanes, craftsmen like Kartar Singh, along with others such as Partab Singh and Rakhi Ram, poured their artistry into harmoniums that would accompany singers, qawwals, and kirtanis across Punjab.

Each instrument bore the unique touch of its maker — the wood carved by hand, the bellows fitted with care, and the reeds tuned with patient precision. Unlike the mass-produced harmoniums of later years, these had a soul of their own, alive with both the perfections and imperfections of craftsmanship.

Partition in 1947 scattered this community of artisans, many migrating across the border to India. With them went the music of their workshops, leaving the lanes of Anarkali and Langa Mandi quieter, their echoes fading. Today, a harmonium bearing a label like that of Kartar Singh survives as more than just an instrument — it is a relic of Lahore’s once-thriving culture of music and craftsmanship, a reminder of a city where melodies were born not just from voices but from the patient hands of its makers.

Monday, 9 June 2025

Shaikh Muhammad Sultan Marg naini (RA): The Deer-Eyed Saint of Lahore

 


Located near the Gari Shahu Railway Flats in Lahore stands a centuries-old banyan tree, its massive roots tangled in time, shading the courtyard of a small but spiritually significant shrine. This is the final resting place of Shaikh Muhammad Sultan Marghbini (RA), a revered Sufi of the Qadri order, remembered not only for his deep spiritual insight but also for his beauty, especially his eyes, which earned him his title.




The epithet Mirg naini comes from the Persian "Mirgh" (deer) and "Naini" (to watch), meaning "deer to watch." It was a name lovingly given to him by his spiritual mentor, Hazrat Shaikh Sadi Shah, who was captivated by the saint's remarkable beauty, particularly his eyes that resembled those of a gazelle—soft, graceful, and filled with divine light.

Shaikh Muhammad Sultan’s spiritual lineage is rooted deeply in the Qadri Sufi order. His mentor, Shaikh Sadi Shah, was a disciple of Shaikh Aqil Shah, who in turn was guided by Mulla Shah. The spiritual chain continued through Khadim Ali Shah, Sulaiman Shah, Khulum Noor Jamal Dehlvi, Shaikh Muhammad Shafi Sudhori, and Shaikh Muhammad Hayat, the latter being a disciple of the great Pir Qamees Ali Shah Gilani.

The Qadri Silsila, founded by Hazrat Abdul Qadir Jilani of Baghdad, is one of the oldest and most widely followed Sufi orders in the Islamic world. It emphasizes love, humility, service to humanity, and complete submission to the will of God. The order is known for balancing the inner path (tariqat) with outer observance (shariat), stressing that spiritual progress must be accompanied by moral discipline. Followers of the Qadri path seek divine nearness through remembrance (zikr), self-purification, and devotion to the spiritual guide (murshid), believing that the saint’s light can help illuminate the seeker’s heart.

This uninterrupted succession of spiritual masters not only reinforced the sanctity of Shaikh Muhammad Sultan’s teachings but also connected him to the broader spiritual and mystical traditions of the Indian subcontinent.

Having received the spiritual blessings and guidance of his mentor, Shaikh Muhammad Sultan rose to immense spiritual heights. He was a rare figure who seamlessly bridged the worlds of the majzoob (those absorbed in divine love and ecstasy) and the salik (those consciously journeying toward God). Among majzoobs, he carried the clarity and composure of a salik, and among saliks, he radiated the divine intoxication of a majzoob. Often lost in sukr (spiritual intoxication), he was known to be constantly immersed in love, ecstasy, and divine absorption.

Shaikh Muhammad Sultan lived during a time of great political upheaval in Lahore. His life overlapped with the reign of Nawab Zakariya Khan, the powerful Mughal governor of Lahore and Multan, followed by his son Shah Nawaz Khan and later Yahya Khan. In 1739, the Persian conqueror Nadir Shah invaded the region, defeating Zakariya Khan and capturing Lahore—a turning point that shook the political and cultural foundations of the Mughal Empire. Despite this unrest, Shaikh Muhammad Sultan remained a tranquil force, drawing seekers toward divine peace.

Shaikh Muhammad Sultan passed away on 1st Shawwal 1158 AH, which corresponds to 24th October 1745 CE. His shrine was constructed by Shah Nawaz Khan, then the Subedar (governor) of Lahore, as a gesture of respect and reverence for the saint. Within the same courtyard, adjacent to his grave, lies a separate and older shrine believed to be that of his mother.










Tuesday, 13 May 2025

Exploring Kasur: A Journey Through History, Architecture, and Forgotten Streets

 

Kasur, one of the oldest living cities of Punjab, carries the silent echoes of centuries-old history, culture, and architectural grandeur. Known as the city of Baba Bulleh Shah, Kasur’s heritage extends beyond its famous Sufi saint. It was once a fortified city of twelve gates, its foundations linked to the legendary Kusha, son of Lord Rama. Over time, Kasur flourished as a center of trade, spirituality, and culture under Mughal, Sikh, and British influence.

In the heart of Kasur, beyond its bustling bazaars and the shadow of modernity, lie the narrow, labyrinthine streets of Kot Rukandin and the old quarters. These forgotten enclaves are treasure troves for any keen eye—crumbling Mughal-style gateways, intricately carved wooden balconies, colonial-era buildings, and weathered inscriptions narrate tales of a glorious yet fading past.

On my recent photography tour, I walked these streets with my camera, seeking to preserve the overlooked fragments of Kasur’s architectural heritage. In Kot Rukandin, I stumbled upon fading archways, Sikh-era havelis, and old Jain temples that still stand resilient amid decay. Every street corner seemed to unveil a hidden doorway, a carved plaque, or an abandoned smadhi—all lost in time yet whispering stories of the people who once called them home.

This visual journey wasn’t just about architecture—it was about connecting with the soul of Kasur, capturing its silent resilience, and shedding light on its neglected historical layers.